New Driver Dread

Years ago when my daughter was learning to drive, I jotted in my journal to help manage my sometimes overwhelming anxiety. As with many things, humor helped me to keep it all in perspective. My daughter is now a fine driver and I'm sure my son will be the same.

Despite knowing this, I feel the tension building as I see friends on the road with their driving teens and think how I'll soon be going through all this again. So for all the parents out there, here is a primer on what to expect as you enter this new life stage.

Stage 1 - Denial and Intense Fear

Your teen has her learner's permit and you, the reluctant but supportive parent are strapped snuggly into the co-pilot's seat. At first you take pride in your clever strategy of keeping to parking lots and deserted side streets. At some point, though, you know you're going to have to bite the bullet and go where there are, gulp, other cars. The first few times out in traffic are a heart-thumping nightmare. You're convinced you're going to cross over that double yellow line, hitting oncoming cars, or drift too far to the right, leaving a trail of mailbox road-kill behind. The feeling that horrific things may happen is constant, even when your child is doing just fine. So when your kid does have a lapse in judgment, it's beyond terrifying.

Stage 2 - Self-preservation

You compare this experience to other times you've gently guided your child to make good decisions. After all, you want her to learn - to become an independent, well-functioning adult. When you're driving with your teen, though, all rationality flies right out the car window.

You constantly bark instructions, pump the invisible passenger's side brake and scream -"Slow down! Stop!" You meticulously check both ways (multiple times) at intersections before giving the go-ahead to cross. Your kid is also looking both ways, but she knows not to go until you say so. You realize this whole driving thing is severely straining your parent-child relationship. "You don't trust me," your kid says. You've got that right, you think, but instead say something like "it's not that - it's just that you need to get a little more experience."

Stage 3 - Letting Go (a bit)

During this next stage, you begin to let go. You may catch yourself before you yell an instruction, waiting to see if your child is going to do what you were about to say. If things are going well, more often than not you won't have to shout. You may even become complacent, not exactly relaxed, but not continuously terrified either.

Warning: This Is A Very Dangerous Stage. Though your teen is gaining experience and making nice progress, she is still a new driver. Keep alert for lapses in judgment. Just when you think everything is going smoothly, your child may make one of those tire-screeching-cutting-off-an-oncoming-car-type moves that makes your heart race. Don't despair. This is quite normal and all part of the learning process. You may find some defiance from your teen at this point. She is gaining confidence (a good thing) but thinks she is an excellent driver (not a good thing.) She may say things like "I can't stand driving with you" or, and this is really scary, but true, "when I get my license you won't be in the car telling me what to do."

Stage 4 - The Launch

If all goes as planned, your child will pass her driving test and become an official driver. She will have to wait six months before she can drive with friends (a good thing), even though she may say it is not a good thing. At this point, your tension level is back to Stage 1, experienced as overall anxiety any time your child reaches for the car keys. The only thing that helps at this point is time - you just kind of get used to your teen being a driver. Realizing the benefits such as running errands and shuttling younger siblings to sports practices helps soften the blow. You try to remember that you too, were once a new driver and look how competent you are now.

So hopefully this has helped to de-mystify the new driver experience. Like many life events, we all manage to somehow muddle through. They learn, they launch. This whole driving thing helps kids gain a bit more independence on their way to being on their own. We parents are learning too. We are learning, slowly, how to (gently) let go.

(This column was originally published on townonline.com October, 2006)